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Friday, April 6, 2007, 11:19 PM

This is a post to the general public. It does not have to refer to anyone. It is just my own intention to say it out.


I hate it when people discriminate others, just because they think they are so much better. What in the world makes you think you are better than anyone? What makes you think you have the right to discriminate others? Look at yourself and tell me. Nothing right? I know. Because I was in the same situation as you, as the person you see on the road, as the people who once used to walk around with us on this earth.

Why bother to tell other people off? Because you THINK you are better? Or because you just want to make that person feel bad? Make him feel unwanted? Make him feel useless and hopeless? I have been put in that situation many times. I have felt left out, useless, ashamed of whatever people mocked me about. I sit in my chair everyday, wishing how life would be better if it were not for the people who discriminate.

Though I admit I used to like to discriminate other people, I will do it to a certain point. Some people are just too much. They laugh. They mock. They have no regrets. And yet they continue, thinking once again that they are better than everyone else. People give each other the stare, as if they are outrightly more powerful.

I have been ignored, pushed to one corner, made fun of, left out in the dark. I would like to join in the laughter. But everyone has a limited amount of pride, a limited amount of humour that they can handle. Sometimes jokes are funny, even though the jokes mock you. But when it continues on for awhile, anyone including me, would definately get frustrated and humiliated. I admit I am sensitive to a lot of jokes. It is not because I do not like being made fun of, sometimes it justs gets too much for me. At points of time like that, I would just walk away, pretending I am handling the joke, pretending that everything is fine. I hate to pretend, to lie about my feelings, to fake that I am fine.

But NO. I have to pretend for the sake of everyones jokes, everyones entertainment. I have promised to change from the selfish and foolish person I have been. But will you? Will you at least care more about other people's feelings? About my feelings?

I have changed my attitude towards people, towards ideaologies, towards interests. I have doubted people, but I have changed. I do not want to lie, I'm telling the truth. If you think I have not just because you want to say I have not, then let it be. Only He will know who is telling the truth. Only He will put the one at fault to the test.

I do not want to say anymore. I have suffered enough humiliation. You continue the story for me.