Friday, August 24, 2007, 4:24 PM
Heya all...sorry for inactivity once again. Been busy with studying plus have limited time to use the laptop. Here goes the little quiz Sharon tagged me with.
List out the top 5 presents you wish for:
1. A drum-set(This wish has been prolonged for like almost 3 years already)
2. World of Warcraft Wrath of the Lich King(when it comes out =P )
3. A Nissan 180SX RPS13(for real! haha)
4. $$ so I can treat my friends to a big treat. (And I mean super big...)
5. Last but not least, well...more money!! $$$$
Answer the following questions-
The person who tagged you is: Sharon
Your relationship with her/him is: Friends! And her BF's best friend =P
Your 5 impressions of her/him:
1. Cheerful
2. Always there to listen to problems
3. Finds my bro wierd o_O
4. Hates smokers
5. Doesn't understand why guys like gaming so much =P
The most memorable thing he/she had done for you:
Well...she has always been there to give me a listening ear whenever I have trouble, problems, doubts etc. She rawks! =P
The most memorable words he/she had said to you:
"Those words you wrote down were sweet." I was like whoa! Are you serious? roflmao!
If he/ she becomes your lover, you will:
I'll suffer the wrath of rod. He'll hunt me down to the ends of the earth! Or at least take my fries away. T_T
If he/ she becomes your lover, things he/ she has to improve on will be:
Never! I won't ask for more. Rod has already deafenstrated me. What else would he do to me? Decapitate me? Gah...no way!
If he/ she becomes your enemy, you will:
Boo! No way! Rod will still kill me. Rather lose an enemy than gain one. Rather have one extra friend than one less.
If he/ she becomes your enemy, the reason will be:
Signed a secret pact with rod to kill her. Roflmao. Just joking. Maybe because I took her cheese away.
The most desired thing you want to do for him/ her now is:
Give her a free treat at Beer Garden in Siglap, and the food would be the Ban Mian which I have been wanting to let her try for ages. And add some cheese to that too. xD
Your overall impression of him/ her is:
Caring. (Always makes sure everyone is happy)
How do you think people around you will feel about you?
I'm a loner. I'm emo. I hate you. Get away from me!
The characteristic(s) you love of yourself is /are:
Never brags about how extremely super rich my family is though everyone likes to say so.
On the contrary. the characteristic (s) you hate of yourself is/ are:
Undecisive, selfishness.
The most ideal person you want to be is:
I don't know, I guess whoever that I find inspiration in? Haha!
For people that like and care for you, say something to them:
Thanks for always being there for me. And always accepting me and forgiving me for whatever faults or wrongdoings I may have done. You deserve more than just my thanks and my appreciation.
Pass this quiz to 10 people;
(Even though some of these people may have been tagged already, I'm still gonna tag them)
In no order of preference,
1. Mark, Best buddy always there for me
2. Jared, Best dude in the whole world, what would I do without you
3. Rod, yet another Best buddy who always shares the same views and thoughts as me
4. Francisco, yet another Best dude who never lets me down
5. Olivia, YO GAL! but yeah haha, thanks for always being there for me, and accepting me
6. Matthew Leong, the most suai dude I've ever known, stay pretty and hope to see you in school more often, especially for lunch! =P
7. Benny Boy, what more can I say about ya? FTW ID4 HOTD4 BOI! WOOT haha
8. Chun Ming, my best buddy classmate =P
9. James Ong, yet another best buddy classmate =P
10. Dominic Ng, best buddy in the choir, stay cheerful bro! =P
Friday, August 17, 2007, 1:40 AM
"The Kill" by 30 Seconds to Mars
(Thanks Sharon for the intro')
What if I wanted to break
Laugh it all off in your face
What would you do? (Oh, oh)
What if I fell to the floor
Couldn't take all this anymore
What would you do, do, do?
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
What if I wanted to fight
Beg for the rest of my life
What would you do?
You say you wanted more
What are you waiting for?
I'm not running from you (from you)
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
I tried to be someone else
But nothing seemed to change
I know now, this is who I really am inside.
Finally found myself
Fighting for a chance.
I know now, this is who I really am.
Ah, ah
Oh, oh
Ah, ah
Come break me down
Bury me, bury me
I am finished with you, you, you.
Look in my eyes
You're killing me, killing me
All I wanted was you
Come break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
Break me down (bury me, bury me)
(You say you wanted more)
What if I wanted to break...?
(What are you waiting for?)
Bury me, bury me
(I'm not running from you)
What if I
What if I
What if I
What if I
Bury me, bury me
Friday, August 10, 2007, 11:33 PM
Sorry peeps for my inactivity on blogging. Been busy with school projects and all. Plus something's been really bothering me these past few days and weeks. Note, profanities may be used. Don't mind me while I rant.
I'm pissed at the way I'm being treated even though I have always accepted that. I'm pissed of being so tensed up everyday. I'm pissed of keeping everything inside of me just because I'm scared to show everyone. I'm pissed of always having to put up a smile, crack a joke or two, just to positively affect the people around me, if not everyone will turn emo because I'm feeling emo. I'm pissed at the stupid things I do to escape from reality, to escape from pain.
You all think I'm always the one that is wrong. You all think the way I treat you all is so superficial, so animated when its not even meant to be. You all give me the cold shoulder, ignore me, talk to me like I'm a stranger. You all think I'm alright, but NO, I'm not the least alright at all.
And for all this, I've accepted the way they are. I had no regrets, no complaints, no pissed-off attitude. Until now, when the pressure is so strong, when the burden that I've been bearing with started tearing the very flesh off me.
I've had enough. Enough of this pain. Enough of this humilation. Enough of this unforgiving attitude. Enough of the inability to accept. Enough of everything.
I'll follow when and where I want to. I will not be pushed around anymore. Enough of giving me this treatment. 'Treat others the way you want them to treat you.' So much for that when all I'm getting is the opposite. What have I done to you to deserve this unfriendly treatment?
Sunday, August 5, 2007, 2:55 AM
"A Lonely September" by Plain White T's
I'm sittin' here all by myself
just tryin' to think of something to do
Tryin' to think of something, anything
just to keep me from thinking of you
But you know it's not working out
'cause you're all that's on my mind
One thought of you is all it takes
to leave the rest of the world behind
[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
I'm sittin' here tryin' to convince myself
that you're not the one for me
But the more I think, the less I believe it
and the more I want you here with me
You know the holidays are coming up
I don't want to spend them alone
Memories of Christmas time with you
will just kill me if I'm on my own
[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back
I know it's not the smartest thing to do
we just can't seem to get it right
But what I wouldn't give to have one more chance tonight
One more chance tonight
I'm sittin' here tryin' to entertain myself with this old guitar
But with all my inspiration gone it's not getting me very far
I look around my room and everything I see reminds me of you
Oh please, baby won't you take my hand
we've got nothing left to prove
[Chorus]Well I didn't mean for this to go as far as it did
And I didn't mean to get so close and share what we did
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back, but I know you did
And I didn't mean to meet you then
we were just kids
And I didn't mean to give you chills
the way that I kiss
And I didn't mean to fall in love, but I did
And you didn't mean to love me back but I know you did
Don't say you didn't love me back 'cause you know you did
No, you didn't mean to love me back
But you did
Saturday, August 4, 2007, 4:56 PM
Falling in love is such a wonderful thing...don't you think? You get to have someone by your side, someone who you care for you and who cares for you, someone who will listen to your problems, someone who you can always look to, someone who you would buy gifts for occasions unknown to, someone who you love, someone who you want to spend the rest of life with.
I know. I've always thought about falling in love with a girl of my dreams, and yet she would love me back equally or better. But love is of no measure. Love comes in many ways though human love is specific and unique in certain ways.
But anyhow, sometimes troubles come along the way. Interference. Impatienence. Lack of time. Etc. This is all reality even if we don't like it or not. Thats where friends come in. Friends who care endlessly. Friends who make sure everything is back to proper place. Friends who love unconditionally even if they aren't in a relationship with who ever their helping. This is what I call Love.
Love never always has to refer to holding hands with your partner, or kissing, or buying gifts for. It comes in simple ways like talking, giving a listening ear, etc. I know exactly what that is. I know how insignificant some of my actions can be, but yet the sign of love is embedded in that action.
Getting angry at your friends, ignoring your friends etc. is a sign of love and caring by some people. I would think otherwise. This shows your inability to accept your friend as they are. The inability to forgive their wrongdoing. The inability to be patient. The inability to Love.
I walk around by myself sometimes, wondering what I can do to care for my family, my friends better. To show how important they are to me. To show what the word 'Love' means to me. To show what love can really do.
Sometimes I get ignored and left out. I accept whoever's decision to ignore me. But it won't be my decision to ignore them and disregard them as the friends I've always known them to be.
Sigh, I'm most probably talking crap. Ahh oh well, thats all for this post.
Ciao.
