Wednesday, January 30, 2008, 2:04 AM
A little boy of thirteen
was on his way to school
He heard a crowd of people laughing
and he went to take a look
Thousands were listening
to the stories of one man
He spoke with such wisdom,
even the kids could understand
The hours passed so quickly
the day turned to night
Everyone was hungry
but there was no food in sight
The boy looked in his lunchbox
at the little that he had
He wasn't sure what good it'd do
there were thousands to be fed
But he saw the twinkling eyes of Jesus
the kindness in His smile
and the boy cried out
with the trust of a child
he said:
"Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
to feed them all"
I often think about that boy
when I'm feeling small
and I worry that the work I do
means nothing at all
But every single tear I cry
is a diamond in His hand
sand every door that slams in my face
I will offer up in prayer
So I'll give you every breath that I have
Oh Lord, you can work miracles
All you need is my "Amen"
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
I hope it's not too small
I trust in you
I trust in you
Take my five loaves and two fishes
Do with it as you will
I surrender
Take my fears my inhibitions
All my burdens, my ambitions
You can use it all
no gift is too small
Tuesday, January 29, 2008, 8:53 PM
I dreamed I was missing,
You were so scared,
But no one would listen,
Cause no one else cared.
After my dreaming,
I woke with this fear,
What am I leaving,
When I'm done here.
So if you're asking me I want you to know.
When my time comes,
Forget the wrong that I've done.
Help me leave behind some
Reasons to be missed.
Don't resent me,
And when you're feeling empty,
Keep me in your memory,
Leave out all the rest.
Leave out all the rest.
Don't be afraid,
I've taken my beating,
I've shared what I made.
I'm strong on the surface,
Not all the way through.
I've never been perfect,
But neither have you.
So if you're asking me I want you to know.
Forgetting, all the hurt inside
You learned to hide so well.
Pretending, someone else can come
And save me from myself.
I can't be who you are.
Leave out all the rest.
Thursday, January 17, 2008, 1:41 AM
My insides all turn to ash,
So slow.
And blew away as I collapsed,
So cold.
A black wind took them away,
From sight.
And now the darkness over day,
that night.
And the clouds above moved closer,
Looking so dissatisfied.
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing.
I used to be my own protection,
But not now.
Cos my path has lost direction,
Some how.
A black wind took you away,
From sight.
And now the darkness over day,
That night.
And the clouds above moved closer,
Looking so dissatisfied.
And the ground below grew colder,
As they put you down inside.
But the heartless wind kept blowing, blowing.
So now you're gone,
And I was wrong.
I never knew what it was like,
To be alone...
Why do I continue to do this,
Why do I continue to let myself suffer,
Why do I continue to hide my emotions,
Why do I continue to dream about something,
Something that will never happen.
Unless, miracles come true.
This is my story, a story of my life,
My life woven into the lyrics of a song.
A song of unknown genre.
A song of hatred.
A song of regret.
A song of peace.
A song of love.
Thursday, January 10, 2008, 9:10 PM
I woke up in a dream today,
To the cold of the static
And put my cold feet on the floor.
Forgot all about yesterday,
Remembering I'm pretending to be where I'm not anymore.
A little taste of hyprocrisy,
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake
Slow to react.
Even though you're so close to me,
You're still so distant,
And I can't bring you back.
It's true, the way I feel,
Was promised by your face.
The sound of your voice,
Painted on my memories,
Even if you're not with me
I'm with you.
You, now I see, keeping everything inside.
You, now I see, even when I close my eyes.
I hit you and you hit me back.
We fall to the floor,
The rest of the day stands still.
Fine line between this and that,
But when things go wrong I pretend that the past isn't real.
Now I'm trapped in this memory,
And I'm left in the wake of the mistake,
Slow to react.
Even though you're close to me,
You're still so distant,
And I can't bring you back.
No, no matter how far we've come.
I can't wait to see tomorrow,
With you.
Thursday, January 3, 2008, 9:30 PM
When I pretend,
Everything is what I wanted to be,
I look exactly like what you had always
Wanted to see.
When I pretend,
I can forget about the criminal I am,
Stealing second after second just 'cause
I know I can, but,
I can't pretend this is the way
It will stay, I'm just
Trying to bend the truth.
I can't pretend I'm who you want me to be
So I'm
Lying my way from you.
No turning back now.
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go.
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone,
Anywhere on my own
'Cause I can see,
The very worse part of you,
Is me.
I remember what they taught to me,
Remember condescending talk
Of who I ought to be.
Remember listening to all of that
And this again.
So I pretended up a person who was fitting in.
And now you think this person
Really is me and I'm
Trying to bend the truth.
But the more I push
The more I'm pulling away
'Cause I'm
Lying my way from you.
No turning back now.
I wanna be pushed aside
So let me go.
Let me take back my life
I'd rather be all alone,
Anywhere on my own
'Cause I can see,
The very worse part of you,
The very worse part of you,
Is me.
This isn't what I wanted to be.
I never thought that what I said
Would have you running from me,
Like this.
The very worse part of you,
The very worse part of you,
Is me.
