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Saturday, May 12, 2007, 10:55 PM

I feel like crying right now.

Because I'm sad and in pain. Sad from what I hoped won't be true and in pain with the path that I have taken ever since the end of the major exams last year. I've lost too much time to pick up the pieces, the pieces of the memories I have cherished. I have caused anger and pain to my closest friends that I have doubted. And oh how I wished I can face up to myself, to erase everything I've done, everything I've become.

But what is the use? The damage has been done. Nothing will ever restore the friendship that I have forsaken because I chose the path to loneliness, to foolishness, to selfishness. I have lost it all. And I won't be able to forgive myself for what I've done, what I now wished I had not done.

I've lost everything I've cherished.

With a drop of tear rolling down my cheek, I'll finish off the post here.