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Friday, August 10, 2007, 11:33 PM

Sorry peeps for my inactivity on blogging. Been busy with school projects and all. Plus something's been really bothering me these past few days and weeks. Note, profanities may be used. Don't mind me while I rant.

I'm pissed at the way I'm being treated even though I have always accepted that. I'm pissed of being so tensed up everyday. I'm pissed of keeping everything inside of me just because I'm scared to show everyone. I'm pissed of always having to put up a smile, crack a joke or two, just to positively affect the people around me, if not everyone will turn emo because I'm feeling emo. I'm pissed at the stupid things I do to escape from reality, to escape from pain.

You all think I'm always the one that is wrong. You all think the way I treat you all is so superficial, so animated when its not even meant to be. You all give me the cold shoulder, ignore me, talk to me like I'm a stranger. You all think I'm alright, but NO, I'm not the least alright at all.

And for all this, I've accepted the way they are. I had no regrets, no complaints, no pissed-off attitude. Until now, when the pressure is so strong, when the burden that I've been bearing with started tearing the very flesh off me.

I've had enough. Enough of this pain. Enough of this humilation. Enough of this unforgiving attitude. Enough of the inability to accept. Enough of everything.

I'll follow when and where I want to. I will not be pushed around anymore. Enough of giving me this treatment. 'Treat others the way you want them to treat you.' So much for that when all I'm getting is the opposite. What have I done to you to deserve this unfriendly treatment?