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Tuesday, May 18, 2010, 2:56 AM

The signs are clear. The past has caught up with me. History is repeating itself and I'm caught in the middle. Why does it have to happen now? I promised myself I wouldn't think about it yet I cried about it because it hurt me whenever I though about it.

One day we were so close. Before I knew it, things had changed and I was back to square one. I didn't want it to end. I became stubborn and persistent. I couldn't prevent the inevitable. It had to happen regardless. I was too late. Too slow. Too selfish. The opportunity was there. But so were the consequences. I blew my chance.

I couldn't watch it occurring. I turned away. But yet I could feel it happening. I put on a facade to hide how I was really feeling. I didn't want to worry you. You deserved more than what I could have provided.

I had to rant this out. If I kept this to myself any longer, I would have just broken down on the spot.

I don't want to lose you. Not now. Not ever. I don't want to lie anymore. I miss you. I miss your smile. I miss the warmth you gave me. I miss how we were. Please don't fade away, especially when I need you the most. Right now.

Even when its dark before the dawn, I feel your grace and carry on. When I needed a place to hang my heart, you were there to wear it from the start. And with every breath in me, you'll be the only light I see.

This heart, it beats for only you. My heart. My heart is yours.